My Panic Problem

Today I felt like doing a more chatty post about something that I’ve experienced for a while now. Ever since I was somewhere around 10 years old I have had these, what I can only describe as, panic attack-like experiences. It normally happens when I’m stressed out, surrounded by (even just a little bit of) clutter, or if I’m in a specific place where, for whatever reason, I feel in danger.

If I’m stressed out it goes like this: I start by feeling like I have so much to do but no time to do it, which causes me to stress. Then suddenly, I can’t think, which stresses me even more. I continuously lose my train of thought and I feel like I’m losing control over my life, my brain, and even my body. My hands and feet go tense along with the rest of my muscles and I feel trapped within my own skin. I get extremely claustrophobic and feel like I’m stuck wherever I am and can’t get out. By then I’m normally on the floor with my knees against my chest and arms wrapped around my legs stretching and clenching my fingers and toes in effort to regain control over my body. I fear not having enough time to do whatever needs to be done. My heart races and I feel as if I can not breath. I’m nauseous, my breath is shaky and I’m probably crying from frustration. I basically panic.

This can last from 5-30 minutes. Sometimes there is something specific that triggers the feeling and other times there is no reason for it at all. I don’t know exactly what I’m experiencing or whether it is a panic attack or not. All I know is I’ve never felt that much fear at once. The feeling of losing that much control over yourself is remarkably scary.

I can also have a similar feeling in certain places. Stores in older buildings tend to be the type of place that really triggers this feeling. In this situation I typically feel, what I can only describe as, uncomfortable. All I can think about is getting out of that location. I feel trapped and in danger like someone is watching me or like somehow I’m going to get hurt or like something bad is going to happen. But most of all, I feel terribly nauseous and as if there is a giant lump in my throat. In this situation the panic is more controllable but just as intense a feeling.

I’d never really thought of this being a panic attack until a few days ago when I discovered an old Zoella video about her panic attacks and anxiety and found what she was describing as a panic attack to be VERY similar to what I have experienced for last 5 or 6 years of my life. I did a little research about panic attacks and so far everything I have found matches up with my “attacks”. I’m no professional therefore I can not diagnose myself but if anyone has had these symptoms or knows anything about panic attacks that may help me to find out what I’ve been experiencing, feel free to comment or email me ( Thanks for listening to my little chat/rant and good luck to any of my readers who are going back to school soon, I’m so not excited :/





Simple Study Tips

Whether your studying for a crucial final exam or for a math unit you don’t quite understand, we could all use some extra tips and tricks to help us to turn our ordinary grades into outstanding grades! I’ve compiled a list of things I do to help prepare myself for a tough test. Let me know if you have any strategies that help you to study and if any of mine may have helped you out.

1. Study right after school

You wake up, go to school, and take in that productive learning mood. Then, you go home, prepare some popcorn, and stream 3 hours of Ellen, This getting you out of that productive mood. After that it can be truly difficult to get back into the proper learning mood. Instead of heading straight to the TV try saving those 3 hours of Ellen for later and instead do 30 minutes to 1 hour of studying, it will be much less stressful.

2. Make a study plan

We’ve all been there, you forget about an important test and end up cramming in all the material at 3 AM the night before. My way of avoiding that irritating situation is to create a structured study plan. Simply use a weekly planner to plan out what you need to be studying for throughout the week. Make sure to start studying a week in advance, this will also help with the last minute cram session issue. You can find some gorgeous weekly planner printables here

3. Put an end to distractions

When studying you should always make sure that you have surrounded yourself with a proper study environment. Make sure to have a drink and nutritious snack by your side to keep you powering through the session. Keep away any possible distractions, such as your phone. Turn it on airplane mode and you wont have to worry about any pesky notifications keeping you from your work. You can also download applications for you computer or laptop to temporarily block websites such as YouTube or Twitter to stop any mid study browsing.

4. Rewrite, Rewrite, Rewrite

Anytime I am required to memorize large amounts of information Rewriting is always my go-to way of studying. You can surely do this whatever way you’d like to but personally I prefer to rewrite all of my notes, then turn those notes into jot notes, then (again) rewrite the key information. For classes such as French or Spanish using index cards to quiz yourself on your understanding of a word,sentence, or question seems to also work very well for me.

5. Test yourself

I find that giving myself a review test at the end of each study session can help me assess myself and find out what I need to focus more on studying. Finish off your study session by closing your notes and write up a short test for yourself to complete, then next session try focusing on the things you got incorrect  or struggled on remembering.

6. Take reasonable breaks

Make sure to take limited breaks throughout your study session. It’s important to give your brain a break so it can process the information it has been given. A quick 10 to 15 minute break can help you to re-focus and concentrate on what you are doing. Continue to avoid social medias and your phone while taking a break, we all know that 5 minute Instagram check will turn into a 30 minute Instagram, Snapchat, Twitter, and Facebook check. Instead do something healthy such as going for a quick walk, tidying up your space, cooking a healthy meal, stretching or do some yoga, the options are truly endless!

Those are just the basics. If you’d like to hear some more let me know and i’ll be sure to do a follow up post on some more specific strategies that help me study.

My 2016 Holiday Playlist

It’s finally December, which means listening to holiday music is perfectly acceptable now! Though I’ve been jamming to Santa Baby since around mid August, now with Christmas décor covering all the walls and table tops of my house I’m surely getting in that much loved Christmas spirit. I created my playlist with a mix of old and new Christmas tunes, everything from Elvis to Ariana Grande. This Playlist is sure to keep any Christmas soul satisfied!


Intro To Me :)

You can find a lot about me in my ‘Welcome To My Site‘ page but I felt like an introduction to my life was necessary. I don’t have loads of friends but the ones I call my besties I know are always there for me when I need them the most. I’m practically obsessed with YouTube! My absolute favorites include ThatcherJoe, Zoella, Tyler Oakley, Kian and Jc, Dan and Phil, Tati, and many more. I’m a makeup and beauty lover who loves (mostly online) shopping, and never wastes a ounce of product. My favorite Friday night includes a warm cup of hot chocolate and a cozy blanket paired with the perfect Netflix series.

Hopefully you’ve learned a little bit about me from this. If you like to learn some more check out my more recent Get To Know Me Q&A post. Thanks for reading!